UUGGHH!!!
I’m so sick of this. I just don’t want to deal with it. I finally stand up for something and it back fires and the other person is so damn stubborn that it’s just making things worse. Someone told me to apologize and basically let the other one win. I can’t do that. I don’t want things going on the way they have. I’m not stepping down even though I my look stubborn as well. I never stand up for something and now that I have but I’m not going to give it all up to make someone else happy…..I don’t think so. You say “your going to give up a friendship for this??…..yeah maybe. Why should I compromise EVERYTHING to make things better between us? Part of me wants it to work out but maybe that’s only because I’m afraid what my life may be with out it. It’s something that makes me happy…. until now. Maybe I’m just afraid that there may be a huge void in my life with out it. Maybe that’s what I need to pop this boulder bubble and change my life. Maybe that’s whats keeping me here. I just feel if I’m here I’ll see others enjoying it and kick myself and feel depressed watching them……..Forget it …no more that’s my decision.